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I was looking back at all my poems and my journal entries, and well some are expressive and others are not I realised they all had one thing in common. They were ignorant. I was ignorant. I realised how selfish I was. I had friends I constantly pushed aside (One in particular, and I hope he knows who he is). I complained I had no friends, to my friends who were always there! Without a doubt, they would drop everything and be by my side, especially when I told them I didn't need them, but they knew better. And even if they were in a different country, and I was going though a particularly tough time, they would write me a poem.  Because that's all they could do at that point, and it was all I needed. I don't even know if I thanked him for that.
Some would message me and not even complain when I took weeks to reply because I was too busy wallowing and being too self-involved to pay attention to anyone else. I liked to act selfless and kind but it's about time I stepped off my high horse and took a good look at myself.

I feel like I have lost them and I feel like I have deserved to. They deserves better than me and I'm surprised they stuck around for so long. I don't want this to sound petty or pathetic or like I'm looking for sympathy, because I'm not. This is me swallowing my pride and admitting this was my fault. I did them wrong and I'm sorry.
  • Mood: Regretful
  • Drinking: Tuppa Tea

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IrrevocableFate Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2014   Writer
Happy birthday! <3
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Lankadoodle Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014
Bit of a late reply, but thanks!
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Devereux-Hyde Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013
Thanks for adding me, sweet!
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Lankadoodle Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013
My pleasure! I always look forward to your work ^.^
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Unwanted-Insanity Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
Thanks for the fav, hun!
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Lankadoodle Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
I absolutely love that photo...
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Unwanted-Insanity Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
Hehe I used to be fairly photogenic back then xD
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Lankadoodle Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
are beautiful
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IrrevocableFate Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013   Writer
:hug: Just because! How are you doing? Happy [really] belated new years!
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Lankadoodle Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013
Naw... That's lovely ^.^ I'm ok thanks, things can be stressful but smilin none the less =D
How are you??

Happy belated new years!
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